Tuesday, October 24, 2006

dreams

How beautiful is this video. I love Lily Allen.

You should listen to her...great lyrics.

Monday, October 23, 2006

delicious

This is the song that I am obsessed with this week.....love the quads....its so "Supersonic" from Technotronic...but still bad ass. I love the end and the line, "..they be linin' down the block just to watch what I got." That's great.

Celicious.....yeah, I like that.

Sunday, October 22, 2006



"I know where beauty lives
I've seen it once, I know the warm she gives
The light that you could never see
It shines inside, you can't take that from me"

One of my favorite lines of a song...been stuck in my head all day.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

truce


Lately, it seems like every single day I am getting closer to figuring out life and people and why things are the way they are. Now obviously , I will not figure everything out but I have come to terms with life and we came to an agreement that I will take what it gives me, keep the positive and let go of the negative.

Life seems much more enjoyable and I have more of a positive attitude about the unknown. I usually obsess about things I think are happening (well let's just call it what it is, paranoia) or the unknown destination of my life. I used to say I would relax and enjoy things more if I knew what was going to happen.


I don't feel that way anymore.


Being a mother, student, full time employee, daughter, girlfriend is hard and things are always unknown. I never know what to expect from one day to the next with any role I take. Nothing is ever constant except my love for my daughter and that even grows more everyday. If I really knew what was going to happen I would never be suprised I would never see people for who they are, what they really do...their character.
I don't wanna know.
I won't worry and consume myself with the why and how.
It is what it is and people and things do what they do.
This is life..I don't wanna waste it on those things.
So, I wanted to document my truce with paranoia and fear. I 'm going to enjoy myself...no matter what.

self esteem

I absolutely love things like this........makes you realize whats real about people and what's fake. Inner is so much more than outer. I am slowly learning that more as I get older.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

mushy gushy


I am very happy woman..

My pinty is doing awesome in school and I get to spend way more time with her.

I just celebrated the greatest year with my Mr. J.

We are going on a much needed vacation soon.

School is going well.

I got a new job...it's not the best but its not serving so its awesome.

This is my favorite time of the year.


I couldn't ask for much more.

I know it's le mush but I just wanted to post it.

I have lots of pictures to post from this weekend...I'll try and do it this week.

Monday, September 25, 2006

the best thing that you've ever had

This is for my Mr. J...

drama

I love how dramatic she is in this video.....the only thing I don't like is the white room with the waves in it....looks like a cheap porno set. But, I like this song alot, the way she belts out makes you really feel the pain she's singing about.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

me

This is my personal monthly horoscope..

September
You don't have to play manipulation games anymore. The truth of the matter is that things are falling into place for you this month, and you don't have to work so hard to have everything you want in the love department. Dreams are coming true naturally. On September 7, take a step back and look at the big picture. It is a much better scenario than you realize. Stop focusing on the bad and start appreciating the good. Whether a relationship is ending or just taking off, trust that you are on the right path, because you are. Wonderful new beginnings are in store for you this September.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

time

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Trust


So, we know these basics:
When there is trust...
...you know he or she will be there for you no matter what happens.
...if you start to fall, they will catch you.
...if you are cold, they will warm you.
...if you need a hug, their arms will enfold you.
...if you need a soft word, theirs is the one you will hear.
...if you need a laugh, they have a joke.
...no matter what you need, you know they will be there, and they know the same about you.


But when the trust is gone...
....they may not be there to break your fall.
...they may be warming someone else when you need it most.
...their arms may already be wrapped around another lover.
...their words may be spoken softly to "him" or "her."
...they may be laughing together... perhaps at you.
...and no matter how much you need them, you'll never know if they'll be there for you... or if they'll ever be there again.
...there is no way to plan for the future.


Without trust, there is no successful relationship.

Take care of yourself.

But what if you want to be with that person stil adn rebuild trust?
One of the keys to rebuilding trust has more to do with what happens after one or both of you apologizes and says "I'm sorry" than the apology itself. We've all heard the saying, "Actions speak louder than words" and this is especially true when it comes to rebuilding trust. When there has been an acknowledgment of wrong-doing or if one person has hurt another in some way, there are some things that both people can do to rebuild trust.
Here's what is suggested for the person who feels they have been hurt:

1. After the apology, be clear about what actions you would like the other person to take to make amends.

2. If the other person is willing, make an agreement about these actions and how this situation will be handled in the future.

3. Be open to the possibility that no matter how this person's conduct may have been in the past, this person may change their behavior. Be willing to give up the "victim" position and the desire for making them pay for what they've done.

4. Watch for positive actions by this person in the future and let them know how much you appreciate it when they've "done it right." In other words, give some positive reinforcement.

Here's what they suggest for the person who is apologizing:
1. Understand that a sincere apology is only the first step toward rebuilding trust and your connection with that other person.

2. Ask how you can make amends for what you have done and listen to what the other person is telling you.

3. Be open to the possibility that you can change and get some help if you need to.

4. If you are sincerely willing to change your behavior in the way that the other person suggests, make an agreement to make those changes.

5. Be consistent in your follow through. People have found that rebuilding trust can take many years or it can happen in an instant. The amount of time that it takes to rebuild trust often depends on how long the people involved are determined to protect and defend their hearts so that they won't be hurt again.

We know that there are many instances where either a person wants to change and just can't or they have no desire to make the changes that will rebuild trust. They just go through the motions and the excuses and apologies are repeated over and over with no positive actions. If this is what you are experiencing, you have choices to make whether this behavior is important enough for you to take a stand against or not. Remember, that no matter what has happened up until now it's always important to give love a chance. It's also important to set healthy boundaries.

Monday, September 04, 2006

Um, no.....no you're not.
Last time I checked you were Froto.

crickey

In Memory of Steve Irwin...you crazy ass.

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

veirgo

For tomorrow:

August 31, 2006
Your partner is demonstrating a particularly passionate streak, and seems to be full of fun and the joy of life. The day's planetary configuration indicates that you have a chance to be honest with each other, and to talk in a positive way about your future, and any changes you would like to make. It is also time for you both to go out and have a marvelous time.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

get your sexy on

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So, I had a weird dream about Justin Timberlake last night....
I was in this dance team and I got picked to dance to "Sexy Back" with him. I was the main person besides him in the front of the stage, everybody else was in a big mass behind us. It was weird because I was in this Dutch garb and he kept telling some lady to tighten my corset...I was wearing a corset with Dutch garb...yeah. So, anyways, when we would practice I was supposed to be this school girl and he had me hold this really obnoixiously big pencil and I was siting at a desk and he said that he wanted me to be like a puppet. A puppet. I'm thinking its like from the imfamous "Bye, bye, bye" video. But then he put this rope in my mouth like in between my teeth and behind my head and said, "Wow, you have nice breath." I don't think we ever danced..... then I woke up.
The more I think about it "the puppet" comment could've derived from the way Cameron looks...as I have pointed out before.


tuck

This one is so much better.....yay!

Monday, August 28, 2006

yay

Man....I am so ready.

I can't wait to order a pizza grab a beer and permanently place my booty on the couch and watch that. I'll probably wait ten minutes so that I can fast forward through the commercials....God, I love my Sam's Choice tivo. So, don't think about calling me during the hours of 10 and 11 pm on Tuesday Sept. 5 for I won't answer it...that sucka will be on silent.

intro

If you didnt see the intro to the Emmy's then please watch...so good.

me

I have lots to talk about. My baby's birthday was this weekend and we had so much fun. I planned him a suprize party for him with all of our friends from highschool. I had him blindfolded the whole way there and accidently ran him into a wall and he fell off a curb.....but, the injuries were worth it. :) My BFF is flying in today to see me for my birthday.....which ins't until next week. She'a a flight attendant and I don't see her that much so this is so special to me. My other bff has decided to take me and all my friends out for my early birthday party this weekend and I CANNOT wait. That's about it for now....more later.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

smells wild

Happy Birthday Dave!!!

Virgo's rule.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Ivan

* updated below 12:36a

I know Benji won and I liked him and wanted him to win but this boy was my secret favorite...bar none.

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His control and flow is untouchable. I mean gaahhhh.

I think i've watched this 12 times already.




Just know that this dance made me cry 2 weeks ago.

I completely understand where Mia is coming from on the feelings. I'll be honest with you, I find myself crying at certain routines because it really is more than just "dancing" to me. So much deeper. Dancing is my vice. I love it more than anything in the world besides my pinty one.

God my lady biz makes me so emotional.

maybe i do

virgo

This is the virgo yearly horroscope...the part about the rest of the year.

By the time autumn unfurls her leaves, you'll be exercising a whole new aspect of your personality, thanks to a partner who excites your senses like no one ever has before. It's as though you've been going through your life with your eyes closed, and suddenly you're plunged into a fairy-tale forest, where streams sing constant melodies in your ear and picturesque mosses hang over every branch of every tree. This person will be your guide through a landscape of unfamiliar but wholly positive emotions. Be sure to express the gratitude you feel. Sometimes it's hard to admit you don't have exclusive control over your own happiness, but it will be a pleasure to admit you owe some of your contentment to such a compassionate source.

mushy gushy

You see this face?
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This is the face of a happy woman.
Couple reasons why.
There is a big someone that makes me feel that way.
There is a pinty somone who makes me feel that way.
The start of my "career" has begun.
Hence the face.
I set this picture to my boyfriend and didnt realize how you can see the happy until I saw it on his phone.
Just wanted to be mushy for a sec.

wow

The Teen Choice Awards 2006


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God, where to begin....ok, Brooke Hogan.
This chick is so unnecessary to my mental state much less the Teen Choice Awards. It's like she won an award for Best New Artist at the Grammy's or something. Listen Carefully...
You
won
best
grill.
Understandably this is the height of your career but still the chatter was too much.
She would not stop talking and thanking everyone like her family, Paul Wall and blah blah. Lame.
Ok, Jessica Simpson....
First of all,I don't know who was in charge of them but I know that they hand out goodie bags to all the celebrities at major events with expensive treats in them. I am thinking there was some crack in Jessica's. I am also thinking maybe Courtney Love was in charge of dispersing the "treats". Was it just me or did she seem a bit "pepped up" and waaaay too nervous to be hosting? Not like hahaha I'm nervous but like ridiculous overacting, trying to seem "too ok" that Nick was there, Im 15 and have a crush on Dane Cook kinda nervous. I dunnno.....I do exagerate a bit but still...it was there.
She also looked like ine of those real dolls.




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Yeah....cause this was a good idea..

(shakes head)

OK..next up. Paula Abdul. Nothing much to say here but what the butt is up with her forearms?


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Looks like Rand Mcnally on them thangs.

And that's a map for all those who don't get my witty humor.

Another thing that was super funny was how Dane Cook started to feel up the mannequin and said it was Jessica Alba and the camera turned off and after it came back the bikini top had been moved completely off the boob....classic.



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I thought Britney looked great...really.





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That's about it..I know the K-fed thing has been overlooked. We all know it was a car wreck. Was anyone suprised? The only thing that did suprise me was the way he sounded like an old grandma who smoked Winstons 68 years. Thats it.

Monday, August 14, 2006

sky high

So while I was waiting in the car pool line to pick up my pinty I looked up at the sky and decided to take some pictures with my camera phone. I couldn't believe what I got. I didn't touch any of these pictures. The pink is the sun.
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Im gonna be changin it up in here so pardon the mess.........

the jerk

Happy Birthday to Steve Martin who turns 61. You're awesome.


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artificial

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So there is someone I know that posted a rant in their blog and it got me thinking about how I agree and how false people make me sick. SO, Here is a personal rant and most of it is from the reply I left them.

I, too have found myself not interested in unnecessary things and people.

Especially people who are fake and say one thing to a "friend" about someone and say and act another way to that same someone or close friends thinking it wont get back to them. Or even talking to someones significant other when they shouldn't be especially if there has been a break up thinking it wont get back to them. Because they usually get back together.

I find these people artificial and wont go out of my way to be their friend.

That is where I am strong.

I can end something quietly and stick with it. Sorry your luck with people is not so great. I completely understand.

The only advice I can give you is to remember that people are people no matter what. And that you yourself havent always done the right thing and perhaps have talked about someone behind their back or been false in some way. I know I have at moments in my life and understand why things like that happen from time to time.

So, sorry to anyone I have hurt or couldn't fully give them the friendship they wanted . The ones that deserved it, that is. You know who you are.

Sometimes you cant see a persons true character until years have passed or they are put in a certain situation. I usually dont make people real friends until I have seen them in a real situation and watched their character come out or what I am when I am around them.

Then I decide.

Which has worked wonders for me.

I know it sounds harsh but I know what I need and want in my life. I have recently let people who are or were my supposed "best friends" go. Internally at least.

Like I said....quietly.

I have 2 true girlfriends who I adore and I feel like thats all I need. I have one true guy friend who I love more than I even know, who is my mate at the same time. I am set. I am grateful for them and know that they will be the ones that last.


So, in closing, learn from me and my mistakes. If you don't want to be hurt or wonder why your "friends" are fake and talking shit about you or talking to your ex or whatever, don't do it to them or anybody else. Cause trust me, it all comes back.

plug

youtube
So do you remember the video of the ..um..person with pink hair singing Ode to my Family? Well I have decided to rave about him and his website. He has so many great videos that he has done by lip synching and is very talented with the way he makes the songs seem like they're his. There is also a project in the making called " A Melancholy Kind of Godspell". Which I think is rendition of "Godspell" which was musical about the gospel of St. Matthew. But I could be wrong. Head over and check it out.


le site...
www.lowbudgetstudios.com

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=LowBudgetStudios



Here's another one of my favorites.....


dana carvey

OH
MY
GOD


I have been looking for this video for like evah....by far my favorite Dana Carvey Show sketch

This is a close second....





That completely makes my week. I love youtube.com, love it.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

music

So there's this new thing I put on here. It's right above my eyes and its a little radio with one song. I'll randomly change it based on my mood. Just wanted to point it out.

Friday, August 11, 2006

to do

Ok kids....it's the time of the week where I disappear. I am going to try to post this weekend...really. I have lots of work and fun and dancin' to do. But, I am going to put forth an effort to post. I am also gonna start posting my weekends on here when Monday's roll around. Just because. Ok with that all said please enjoy my favorite video of the week.
Which is something else I am doing too on Thursdays.....enjoy.


Thursday, August 10, 2006

strabismus

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I feel preety damn good about my test..but we'll see.

I have to wait a week to find out.

test

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I have a big test today that I crammed for. So wish me luck and think of me at 5:30 p.m.. I'll be freaking out and possibly crying through a long and ridiculously high expectation test. I should know my score by the end of class....maybe I'll post it.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

yay

It is the best pre birthday present ever to see my Christian Troy again.

sunscreen

This song made me cry a little tonight. :) Please watch.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

meet the barker no s

So my favorite celebrity couple is divorcing.....the sadness is unmeasurable for this little blogger. I loved them together. I loved the kids. Shanna always reminded me a bit of me. Cutsey baby talk, spoiled, strong, and lets her man be a man. Well, I guess he didn't like it too much because he filed for divorce.
On a personal note, it seems like people just divorce cause things get hard. 1 in 3 marriages end in divorce in just the first 5 years. I feel like unless your life is in danger or your kids life then that is what a marriage is...learning and growing. Didn't you marry that person because they made you feel better as a person or they helped you grow in some way? Things aren't and weren't always easy. Just cause things get hard that doesn't mean get a divorce. It's how you get through those times that makes you who you are. It means for better and for worse...sorry, but it's true. They're called vows. But, I have no idea what happened to them or what the reason was so I shouldn't say anything. Just sparked a nerve and wanted to vent. Let's say goodbye to the Barker's with this cool video of them.



virgo

Week of August 7, 2006

There may be a very logical reason for why your lover said this or said that or didn’t say this or didn’t say that, but guess what? It is not your job to figure out what that reason is. Yes, your brain is hard at work like a little computer analyzing, evaluating, and nit-icking in order to keep every comment, act, and e-mail in a neat little compartment. This week, however, your computer is likely to have a meltdown when your brain goes into overdrive as it tries to process all the waves of information that are bombarding it. Doesn’t it feel like you get 20 different mixed signals from your lover a day? Maybe he or she only likes you between the hours of 2 and 4 in the afternoon, or 9 to 10 at night. The other possibility is that the one you love is actually looking for more solid signals from you. Perhaps you are sending out mixed messages yourself. Subconsciously, you might be doing this as a defense mechanism in order to keep yourself from getting hurt. Either way, it does no good to interpret the other person’s signals until you have your own broadcasting system up and working.

Monday, August 07, 2006

annie

No more I love you's

The language is leaving me in silence

Some of the most commanding lyrics I've ever heard...I remember this as a little girl when my mom used to listen to it.....so much meaning.

Monday, July 31, 2006

sexy love

I love...love...love...this song. Makes me all emotional..lol. I know.......sad.

The lyrics are nice too.....I'm all about lyrics.

time

I know my posts are kinda small lately. I have school and it rules my life. Plus, I am moving through a bittersweet moment in my life and I need to really see what I am going through. I am going to still post so don't give up on that girl....:)

I'll be back.....trust me.

love my bitch

HAYYYYYY

Ok I fixed it..........

Sunday, July 30, 2006

love my bitch

This is the song that I can't get out of my head this week.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

neat


Myspace Codes & Myspace Code

sexy back

I hope you get to see it cause they like to delete things like this for shit like copyright nonsense...this video is hot. Very Mr. and Mrs. Smith. Watching it makes me wanna slap Britney and be like WTF were you thinking leaving and cheating on this man???

If this is any testament to how sexy he is in real life......damn.

Damn I say.

puty the greedy

Richard Hatch has been sent to a federal prison in Oklahoma as he serves a 51-month prison sentence for failing to pay taxes on the $1 million he won on the debut season of the reality TV show, "Survivor."

Hatch arrived several days ago at the Federal Transfer Center in Oklahoma City, Okla. It was not immediately clear why Hatch was moved or whether he will serve out his prison sentence at the facility, which is a hub for prisoners transferring through the federal system.


A federal jury convicted Hatch in January of failing to pay taxes on the "Survivor" prize and other income. He was sentenced in May to 51 months in prison by a judge who said the reality TV star had lied repeatedly on the witness stand.

Hatch had previously been held at the Plymouth County Correctional Facility in Massachusetts. Hatch would prefer to serve his sentence near family in Rhode Island or in Florida, said his lawyer, Michael Minns.

"He should be in a camp," said Hatch's attorney, Michael Minns. "The camps are the most comfortable of the uncomfortable. They are still jails, but they get to see the sky and be outside. It's bad for Richard, who is an outdoor person."

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That's crazy to think that going on that show would lead him to like 4 years of prison time....I mean I know him not paying taxes is why he's in jail but inevitably, winning that money puty the greedy in him and now he's on his way to ....Survivor, the ass pounding series.

happy

80's

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If you can get through this whole video, leave me a comment so I can help pay for some counseling.

Such a great song.



This is a great band...er...was.




The last one...... but it makes me smile instantly when I hear it.

"Shine sweet freedom

Shine your light on me

You are the magic

Youre right where I wanna be

Oh sweet freedom carry me along

Well keep the spirit alive on and on"

love that shit

*update: some guy said on youtube that at 2:15 when he says 'you are the magic', he spits...lmfao...I had to share that with you

Thursday, July 20, 2006

bad

Seriously, I am at a loss.

I am a self proclaimed plastic surgery supporter, even though I do not have any.....yet. But I only support GOOD plastic surgery. I know Tara Reid isn't like raking in the dough anymore, but still, you'd think she could have found a legit doctor to perform a simple liposuction and breast augmentation. Granted I have done research and know that when you have lipo that you shouldn't eat or drink heavily afterwards because of the rippling it will do to your skin. I am sure she was told this.

Tara Reid being told not to drink heavily is as asinine as David Hasselhoff being told not to try so hard...it's not possible.

It's like she went into the office and asked for the 68 year old special. Shit, she's only 30.

Remember the old Tara?

Yeah, she looks like her mom now...ehhhggguhhh. Makes me second guess my decision to nip and tuck.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

skate

Ok so apparently Jessica Simpson wants Nick to be jealous.....this video is...ehhh let's say...alright. It's got cool cameos and it's very old Madonna too. Which is ok but you know. I do like the roller skating. I don't quite know what to say about the ice cream thing because I haven't decided if its sexy or awkward. All in all its alright.

fat

Just sayin.....

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

london

I am very hesitant on promoting anything that Fergie does...........but I do like this song.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

day

This is the best thing I've seen all week.

58

Happy Birthday Richard Simmons....you stud.

hang


Who knew Uma Thurman had a big rack? This guy does and apparently so did her elbows.

Monday, July 10, 2006

stuff



Time to endorse some thangs I love.....



Probably the best tasting energy drink evah....and goes great with vodka.

This smells soo dang good. I put a bit on one day from a tester at my tanning salon and forgot I had it on and kept smelling this scent and was like DAYAHM.....then realized of course it was me ...
Ok that's it for now.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

kick

These be the songs consuming me this week.....I hear them in my head when I'm walking around and shit ....

cause I'm gangsta....that's why.





gilette


Yeah when you shave your chest to try and "fool" us I would imagine that it itches Pink..

savy

So I went to see this tonight and really enjoyed it about the first hour and 45 mins. But then I realized that it was an hour longer.. don't get me wrong, I loved the movie and all the special effects but I just think it was a lot of information to shove into peoples head at once. But, who am I to say anything....I could watch Johnny Depp all day long.

Speaking of movies..I am so ready for this.



life

Today when I woke up I realized what I wanted and did not want in my life. So , I decided to make sure everything I did not want was out. And thankfully it is. I know where my heart is.
On a side note, I think it is funny how people become friends again with people when they have nothing left. How they swear they are finished and bam....when they become alone again....the banned ones are back. I guess that's what life is all about... changing your mind. I, too know that feeling well. But, I am not going to worry about any of that shit anymore...and when I say I ban someone...know that I am done.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

vids

I have declared Thursday random video day...so that I may have a break..... enjoy even though it Wednesday night...

When I see this I swear I die laughing. I have a very close friend who can do what Dorothy does at about 0:55...he's a master.



This is just because the intro makes me wish I was a back updancer.




I literally came close to peeing myself......seriously.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006






Happy Fourth of July bitches. I am going to be spending the day with my buddy and pinty. I will post later.

Monday, July 03, 2006

the light

This is my ultimate favorite bestest song. When I think about love and the right thing to say or feel this is what I hope someone would want to say..... enjoy it.

"....I know your heart is weathered by what studs did to you

I aint gon assault em cause I probably did it too

Because of you, feelings I handle with care..."

"...Lets stick to understandin and we wont fall

For better or worse times, I hope to me you call

So I pray everyday more than anything

Friends will stay as we begin to lay..."

"...Granted we known each other for some time

It dont take a whole day to recognize sunshine..."

love it...

free

So, Lil Kim has been released on good behaivor. She ended up serving 10 months instead of 12 for a perjury conviction stemming from her testimony in a shooting trial in New York City. She looks a bit plump...like her face...but very happy.

NY DAILY NEWS reports that, Lil Kim will be greeted with barbecue chicken, macaroni and cheese, salmon pasta salad, rice and peas and a fruit plate from the Watt Co. when she walks in the door in Alpine, N.J..

And I'm sure hair extensions, nails, 48 pounds of makeup, and tacky outfits with pasties.


candy

It's like watching a crime in progress. He looks like those girls grandpa. Why is this happening. Do you remember those videos you can make at Six Flags? The ones where they have a back drop and you lip synch? Yeah I think I've found the "studio" that allows the Hoff to continue to "produce" "music".

Sunday, July 02, 2006

just fine

"That IMO is how you know you have met the one, because they will enrich your life so much that YOU will have a better opportunity to grow, and love, and experience, and share, and to just be you and realize your true potential in a way that you could not without them playing a significant part of your life."

Wow...so very true. Thank God for my 3 fans. I'm really glad I am able to take a step back and look at things a bit differently now.

Tis true that people can change. An old friend of mine of whom I am no longer acquainted with had made me realize that a while ago. I guess when you feel screwed over your mind allows you to have fury thoughts and things come out that you don't mean.

I know that being in my past relationship made me see things so differently and to be honest with you I do not allow anyone to really affect me to the point of change...yes I did say change. I feel like a better person for knowing him and experiencing the things I did with him regardless of the outcome. So, no matter what his purpose was or is in my life I am grateful for the journey and honestly have no regrets.

Thanks for your comment anonymous

Friday, June 30, 2006

done and done

So....


I think it should be mandatory that people should come with warning labels. Things like:


Warning:


Will cheat on you.


Will lie to you.


Will neglect you.


Will hurt you and not give a shit.


Things like that. At least that way you have an idea what you're getting. So you can decide whether or not you want to be their friend or be their lovah.

It's funny how you know deep down inside that things are wrong and that it's over but you still have that mini idea that maybe just maybe that person could change. NOPE.

I made a crucial decision about a week ago that I had to make and now I know the answer and I have to live with it. That part of my life is over and in a weird way I feel relieved and hopeful for tomorrow. I understand that in some way I deserve this....I have not always treated others with respect.

This is my time to put all the me into me and my little one and not into someone who doesn't deserve it.

With all that said know that I am not bitter but just wanted to vent...

Thursday, June 29, 2006

not a star anymore

As if anybody gives a shit you crazy bitch. I am so over engourging myself on my pop culture everyday and having to read some cockamayme story on this beast.
So, you lost weight............. who cares?
So, you got married.......he's gay dumbass.
So, you're a lawyer.......then you'll have something fall back on.
So, you're leaving The View....................is that show still on????
Seriously, enough of you . You kinda scare me a little.

pregos





Umm...she does look nice. Britney would like to thank her stylist,

we're all stars

Another sign of the Apocolypse.

bombs


Yeah.....sometimes when clothes don't fit you just gotta make it work.....especially at a "charity" event for the movie "Just my Luck". Nice.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

shock

My bestest friend forever (dont ever change) and I decided to make a video about "the shocker". Because we had drank a bit and thats about the only reason. Enjoy...



Tuesday, June 27, 2006

posts


Hey pals, I know my posts are a bit lame today and last night. I am going to post a bunch later..promise..come back later and see,ho. Come.. back... and see.

weiner




Look I'm not one to be rude....ehe hem....but Olivia looks like a spicy sausage in that thing..like those spicy red hot dog thingys.

dosie do, ho

When I see this picture I feel like "Cotton - eyed Joe" is gonna start up....

Monday, June 26, 2006

cornflakes

This shit is funny as hell.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

My Space


Why is it that people just love to hurt people or have no respect for others on this thing? I think today is the day that I delete my account and rise above the drama and immaturity that MYspace brings out in people. Number one is it completely consumes people in that you check it all day on the half hour. Number two if you break up with someone, they have shit on there that they hope you see that will hurt you. Number three if you have any enemies, instead of saying shit to you to your face they will make a blog and call you everything in the book to hurt you. I have been privy to all of these things and have done them all as well. Which is why I am over it and am going to delete my account. I mean, didn't I graduate highschool....like years ago? And if you're my friend, then you know how to get in touch with me.... I don't need a comment to justify our friendship so that I "look popular" on the internet. It makes me literally nauseated when I see something that I don't need to. I wish I could block out the fucking page so I wasn't allowed to check anyone's or create another account if I miss it. It seriously has caused utter drama in my life and when I was with my other it caused insecurity and jealousy in both of us. Today I have made a decision and I am sticking to it. Peace the fuck out myspace......aka highschool.




Update: It has indeed been deleted..

in the bear


Um yeah.....for real now, is this really what is in style now....an old man vest with denim panties? SERIOUSLY?? I mean....dayamn (shakes head) ..... she's so little maybe thats all she could find in her son's toy box to wear...thank God for Build a Bear workshops. Somewhere in England there's a poor naked, violated teddy bear crying inside...