dreams

How beautiful is this video. I love Lily Allen.

You should listen to her...great lyrics.

delicious

This is the song that I am obsessed with this week.....love the quads....its so "Supersonic" from Technotronic...but still bad ass. I love the end and the line, "..they be linin' down the block just to watch what I got." That's great.

Celicious.....yeah, I like that.

"I know where beauty lives
I've seen it once, I know the warm she gives
The light that you could never see
It shines inside, you can't take that from me"

One of my favorite lines of a song...been stuck in my head all day.

truce

Lately, it seems like every single day I am getting closer to figuring out life and people and why things are the way they are. Now obviously , I will not figure everything out but I have come to terms with life and we came to an agreement that I will take what it gives me, keep the positive and let go of the negative.

Life seems much more enjoyable and I have more of a positive attitude about the unknown. I usually obsess about things I think are happening (well let's just call it what it is, paranoia) or the unknown destination of my life. I used to say I would relax and enjoy things more if I knew what was going to happen.

I don't feel that way anymore.

Being a mother, student, full time employee, daughter, girlfriend is hard and things are always unknown. I never know what to expect from one day to the next with any role I take. Nothing is ever constant except my love for my daughter and that even grows more everyday. If I really knew what was going to happen I would never be suprised I would never see people for who they are, what they really do...their character.

I don't wanna know.

I won't worry and consume myself with the why and how.

It is what it is and people and things do what they do.

This is life..I don't wanna waste it on those things.

So, I wanted to document my truce with paranoia and fear. I 'm going to enjoy myself...no matter what.

self esteem

I absolutely love things like this........makes you realize whats real about people and what's fake. Inner is so much more than outer. I am slowly learning that more as I get older.

mushy gushy

I am very happy woman..

My pinty is doing awesome in school and I get to spend way more time with her.

I just celebrated the greatest year with my Mr. J.

We are going on a much needed vacation soon.

School is going well.

I got a new job...it's not the best but its not serving so its awesome.

This is my favorite time of the year.


I couldn't ask for much more.

I know it's le mush but I just wanted to post it.

I have lots of pictures to post from this weekend...I'll try and do it this week.

the best thing that you've ever had

This is for my Mr. J...

drama

I love how dramatic she is in this video.....the only thing I don't like is the white room with the waves in it....looks like a cheap porno set. But, I like this song alot, the way she belts out makes you really feel the pain she's singing about.

me

This is my personal monthly horoscope..

September
You don't have to play manipulation games anymore. The truth of the matter is that things are falling into place for you this month, and you don't have to work so hard to have everything you want in the love department. Dreams are coming true naturally. On September 7, take a step back and look at the big picture. It is a much better scenario than you realize. Stop focusing on the bad and start appreciating the good. Whether a relationship is ending or just taking off, trust that you are on the right path, because you are. Wonderful new beginnings are in store for you this September.

time

Trust


So, we know these basics:
When there is trust...
...you know he or she will be there for you no matter what happens.
...if you start to fall, they will catch you.
...if you are cold, they will warm you.
...if you need a hug, their arms will enfold you.
...if you need a soft word, theirs is the one you will hear.
...if you need a laugh, they have a joke.
...no matter what you need, you know they will be there, and they know the same about you.

But when the trust is gone...
....they may not be there to break your fall.
...they may be warming someone else when you need it most.
...their arms may already be wrapped around another lover.
...their words may be spoken softly to "him" or "her."
...they may be laughing together... perhaps at you.
...and no matter how much you need them, you'll never know if they'll be there for you... or if they'll ever be there again.
...there is no way to plan for the future.

Without trust, there is no successful relationship.

Take care of yourself.

But what if you want to be with that person stil adn rebuild trust?
One of the keys to rebuilding trust has more to do with what happens after one or both of you apologizes and says "I'm sorry" than the apology itself. We've all heard the saying, "Actions speak louder than words" and this is especially true when it comes to rebuilding trust. When there has been an acknowledgment of wrong-doing or if one person has hurt another in some way, there are some things that both people can do to rebuild trust.
Here's what is suggested for the person who feels they have been hurt:

1. After the apology, be clear about what actions you would like the other person to take to make amends.

2. If the other person is willing, make an agreement about these actions and how this situation will be handled in the future.

3. Be open to the possibility that no matter how this person's conduct may have been in the past, this person may change their behavior. Be willing to give up the "victim" position and the desire for making them pay for what they've done.

4. Watch for positive actions by this person in the future and let them know how much you appreciate it when they've "done it right." In other words, give some positive reinforcement.

Here's what they suggest for the person who is apologizing:
1. Understand that a sincere apology is only the first step toward rebuilding trust and your connection with that other person.

2. Ask how you can make amends for what you have done and listen to what the other person is telling you.

3. Be open to the possibility that you can change and get some help if you need to.

4. If you are sincerely willing to change your behavior in the way that the other person suggests, make an agreement to make those changes.

5. Be consistent in your follow through. People have found that rebuilding trust can take many years or it can happen in an instant. The amount of time that it takes to rebuild trust often depends on how long the people involved are determined to protect and defend their hearts so that they won't be hurt again.

We know that there are many instances where either a person wants to change and just can't or they have no desire to make the changes that will rebuild trust. They just go through the motions and the excuses and apologies are repeated over and over with no positive actions. If this is what you are experiencing, you have choices to make whether this behavior is important enough for you to take a stand against or not. Remember, that no matter what has happened up until now it's always important to give love a chance. It's also important to set healthy boundaries.

Um, no.....no you're not.

Last time I checked you were Froto.

crickey

In Memory of Steve Irwin...you crazy ass.

veirgo

For tomorrow:

August 31, 2006
Your partner is demonstrating a particularly passionate streak, and seems to be full of fun and the joy of life. The day's planetary configuration indicates that you have a chance to be honest with each other, and to talk in a positive way about your future, and any changes you would like to make. It is also time for you both to go out and have a marvelous time.

get your sexy on

So, I had a weird dream about Justin Timberlake last night....

I was in this dance team and I got picked to dance to "Sexy Back" with him. I was the main person besides him in the front of the stage, everybody else was in a big mass behind us. It was weird because I was in this Dutch garb and he kept telling some lady to tighten my corset...I was wearing a corset with Dutch garb...yeah. So, anyways, when we would practice I was supposed to be this school girl and he had me hold this really obnoixiously big pencil and I was siting at a desk and he said that he wanted me to be like a puppet. A puppet. I'm thinking its like from the imfamous "Bye, bye, bye" video. But then he put this rope in my mouth like in between my teeth and behind my head and said, "Wow, you have nice breath." I don't think we ever danced..... then I woke up.

The more I think about it "the puppet" comment could've derived from the way Cameron looks...as I have pointed out before.

tuck

This one is so much better.....yay!

yay

Man....I am so ready.

I can't wait to order a pizza grab a beer and permanently place my booty on the couch and watch that. I'll probably wait ten minutes so that I can fast forward through the commercials....God, I love my Sam's Choice tivo. So, don't think about calling me during the hours of 10 and 11 pm on Tuesday Sept. 5 for I won't answer it...that sucka will be on silent.

intro

If you didnt see the intro to the Emmy's then please watch...so good.

me

I have lots to talk about. My baby's birthday was this weekend and we had so much fun. I planned him a suprize party for him with all of our friends from highschool. I had him blindfolded the whole way there and accidently ran him into a wall and he fell off a curb.....but, the injuries were worth it. :) My BFF is flying in today to see me for my birthday.....which ins't until next week. She'a a flight attendant and I don't see her that much so this is so special to me. My other bff has decided to take me and all my friends out for my early birthday party this weekend and I CANNOT wait. That's about it for now....more later.

smells wild

Happy Birthday Dave!!!

Virgo's rule.

Ivan

* updated below 12:36a

I know Benji won and I liked him and wanted him to win but this boy was my secret favorite...bar none.

.....please let it load to see the full effect....

His control and flow is untouchable. I mean gaahhhh.

I think i've watched this 12 times already.

Just know that this dance made me cry 2 weeks ago.

I completely understand where Mia is coming from on the feelings. I'll be honest with you, I find myself crying at certain routines because it really is more than just "dancing" to me. So much deeper. Dancing is my vice. I love it more than anything in the world besides my pinty one.

God my lady biz makes me so emotional.