the best thing that you've ever had

This is for my Mr. J...

drama

I love how dramatic she is in this video.....the only thing I don't like is the white room with the waves in it....looks like a cheap porno set. But, I like this song alot, the way she belts out makes you really feel the pain she's singing about.

me

This is my personal monthly horoscope..

September
You don't have to play manipulation games anymore. The truth of the matter is that things are falling into place for you this month, and you don't have to work so hard to have everything you want in the love department. Dreams are coming true naturally. On September 7, take a step back and look at the big picture. It is a much better scenario than you realize. Stop focusing on the bad and start appreciating the good. Whether a relationship is ending or just taking off, trust that you are on the right path, because you are. Wonderful new beginnings are in store for you this September.

time

Trust


So, we know these basics:
When there is trust...
...you know he or she will be there for you no matter what happens.
...if you start to fall, they will catch you.
...if you are cold, they will warm you.
...if you need a hug, their arms will enfold you.
...if you need a soft word, theirs is the one you will hear.
...if you need a laugh, they have a joke.
...no matter what you need, you know they will be there, and they know the same about you.

But when the trust is gone...
....they may not be there to break your fall.
...they may be warming someone else when you need it most.
...their arms may already be wrapped around another lover.
...their words may be spoken softly to "him" or "her."
...they may be laughing together... perhaps at you.
...and no matter how much you need them, you'll never know if they'll be there for you... or if they'll ever be there again.
...there is no way to plan for the future.

Without trust, there is no successful relationship.

Take care of yourself.

But what if you want to be with that person stil adn rebuild trust?
One of the keys to rebuilding trust has more to do with what happens after one or both of you apologizes and says "I'm sorry" than the apology itself. We've all heard the saying, "Actions speak louder than words" and this is especially true when it comes to rebuilding trust. When there has been an acknowledgment of wrong-doing or if one person has hurt another in some way, there are some things that both people can do to rebuild trust.
Here's what is suggested for the person who feels they have been hurt:

1. After the apology, be clear about what actions you would like the other person to take to make amends.

2. If the other person is willing, make an agreement about these actions and how this situation will be handled in the future.

3. Be open to the possibility that no matter how this person's conduct may have been in the past, this person may change their behavior. Be willing to give up the "victim" position and the desire for making them pay for what they've done.

4. Watch for positive actions by this person in the future and let them know how much you appreciate it when they've "done it right." In other words, give some positive reinforcement.

Here's what they suggest for the person who is apologizing:
1. Understand that a sincere apology is only the first step toward rebuilding trust and your connection with that other person.

2. Ask how you can make amends for what you have done and listen to what the other person is telling you.

3. Be open to the possibility that you can change and get some help if you need to.

4. If you are sincerely willing to change your behavior in the way that the other person suggests, make an agreement to make those changes.

5. Be consistent in your follow through. People have found that rebuilding trust can take many years or it can happen in an instant. The amount of time that it takes to rebuild trust often depends on how long the people involved are determined to protect and defend their hearts so that they won't be hurt again.

We know that there are many instances where either a person wants to change and just can't or they have no desire to make the changes that will rebuild trust. They just go through the motions and the excuses and apologies are repeated over and over with no positive actions. If this is what you are experiencing, you have choices to make whether this behavior is important enough for you to take a stand against or not. Remember, that no matter what has happened up until now it's always important to give love a chance. It's also important to set healthy boundaries.

Um, no.....no you're not.

Last time I checked you were Froto.

crickey

In Memory of Steve Irwin...you crazy ass.

veirgo

For tomorrow:

August 31, 2006
Your partner is demonstrating a particularly passionate streak, and seems to be full of fun and the joy of life. The day's planetary configuration indicates that you have a chance to be honest with each other, and to talk in a positive way about your future, and any changes you would like to make. It is also time for you both to go out and have a marvelous time.

get your sexy on

So, I had a weird dream about Justin Timberlake last night....

I was in this dance team and I got picked to dance to "Sexy Back" with him. I was the main person besides him in the front of the stage, everybody else was in a big mass behind us. It was weird because I was in this Dutch garb and he kept telling some lady to tighten my corset...I was wearing a corset with Dutch garb...yeah. So, anyways, when we would practice I was supposed to be this school girl and he had me hold this really obnoixiously big pencil and I was siting at a desk and he said that he wanted me to be like a puppet. A puppet. I'm thinking its like from the imfamous "Bye, bye, bye" video. But then he put this rope in my mouth like in between my teeth and behind my head and said, "Wow, you have nice breath." I don't think we ever danced..... then I woke up.

The more I think about it "the puppet" comment could've derived from the way Cameron looks...as I have pointed out before.

tuck

This one is so much better.....yay!

yay

Man....I am so ready.

I can't wait to order a pizza grab a beer and permanently place my booty on the couch and watch that. I'll probably wait ten minutes so that I can fast forward through the commercials....God, I love my Sam's Choice tivo. So, don't think about calling me during the hours of 10 and 11 pm on Tuesday Sept. 5 for I won't answer it...that sucka will be on silent.

intro

If you didnt see the intro to the Emmy's then please watch...so good.

me

I have lots to talk about. My baby's birthday was this weekend and we had so much fun. I planned him a suprize party for him with all of our friends from highschool. I had him blindfolded the whole way there and accidently ran him into a wall and he fell off a curb.....but, the injuries were worth it. :) My BFF is flying in today to see me for my birthday.....which ins't until next week. She'a a flight attendant and I don't see her that much so this is so special to me. My other bff has decided to take me and all my friends out for my early birthday party this weekend and I CANNOT wait. That's about it for now....more later.

smells wild

Happy Birthday Dave!!!

Virgo's rule.

Ivan

* updated below 12:36a

I know Benji won and I liked him and wanted him to win but this boy was my secret favorite...bar none.

.....please let it load to see the full effect....

His control and flow is untouchable. I mean gaahhhh.

I think i've watched this 12 times already.

Just know that this dance made me cry 2 weeks ago.

I completely understand where Mia is coming from on the feelings. I'll be honest with you, I find myself crying at certain routines because it really is more than just "dancing" to me. So much deeper. Dancing is my vice. I love it more than anything in the world besides my pinty one.

God my lady biz makes me so emotional.

maybe i do

virgo

This is the virgo yearly horroscope...the part about the rest of the year.

By the time autumn unfurls her leaves, you'll be exercising a whole new aspect of your personality, thanks to a partner who excites your senses like no one ever has before. It's as though you've been going through your life with your eyes closed, and suddenly you're plunged into a fairy-tale forest, where streams sing constant melodies in your ear and picturesque mosses hang over every branch of every tree. This person will be your guide through a landscape of unfamiliar but wholly positive emotions. Be sure to express the gratitude you feel. Sometimes it's hard to admit you don't have exclusive control over your own happiness, but it will be a pleasure to admit you owe some of your contentment to such a compassionate source.

mushy gushy

You see this face?

This is the face of a happy woman.

Couple reasons why.

There is a big someone that makes me feel that way.

There is a pinty somone who makes me feel that way.

The start of my "career" has begun.

Hence the face.

I set this picture to my boyfriend and didnt realize how you can see the happy until I saw it on his phone.

Just wanted to be mushy for a sec.

wow

The Teen Choice Awards 2006

God, where to begin....ok, Brooke Hogan.

This chick is so unnecessary to my mental state much less the Teen Choice Awards. It's like she won an award for Best New Artist at the Grammy's or something. Listen Carefully...

You

won

best

grill.

Understandably this is the height of your career but still the chatter was too much.

She would not stop talking and thanking everyone like her family, Paul Wall and blah blah. Lame.

Ok, Jessica Simpson....

First of all,I don't know who was in charge of them but I know that they hand out goodie bags to all the celebrities at major events with expensive treats in them. I am thinking there was some crack in Jessica's. I am also thinking maybe Courtney Love was in charge of dispersing the "treats". Was it just me or did she seem a bit "pepped up" and waaaay too nervous to be hosting? Not like hahaha I'm nervous but like ridiculous overacting, trying to seem "too ok" that Nick was there, Im 15 and have a crush on Dane Cook kinda nervous. I dunnno.....I do exagerate a bit but still...it was there.

She also looked like ine of those real dolls.

Yeah....cause this was a good idea..

(shakes head)

OK..next up. Paula Abdul. Nothing much to say here but what the butt is up with her forearms?

Looks like Rand Mcnally on them thangs.

And that's a map for all those who don't get my witty humor.

Another thing that was super funny was how Dane Cook started to feel up the mannequin and said it was Jessica Alba and the camera turned off and after it came back the bikini top had been moved completely off the boob....classic.

I thought Britney looked great...really.

That's about it..I know the K-fed thing has been overlooked. We all know it was a car wreck. Was anyone suprised? The only thing that did suprise me was the way he sounded like an old grandma who smoked Winstons 68 years. Thats it.

sky high

So while I was waiting in the car pool line to pick up my pinty I looked up at the sky and decided to take some pictures with my camera phone. I couldn't believe what I got. I didn't touch any of these pictures. The pink is the sun.

Im gonna be changin it up in here so pardon the mess.........